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Individual Entry Archives

On natural selection in the Alaska bush

Before I get started, I'd just like to exclaim that the fireweed is blooming! Hooray! When I was in high school I read Into the Wild, a story by Jon Krakauer which has gained quite a bit more attention and... (14 July 2008)

They call me Dr. Wool

My favorite new stress reliever: Yarn. I know I'm not the first knitter to proclaim the stress-relieving properties of the craft from the mountaintops, but when I'm stressed I crave simplicity, and really, it doesn't get any more simple than... (10 July 2008)

A little bit of "hey we share a wall" etiquette

A brief note on style and being a good neighbor: If you know that you are, say, a moaner or a screamer, please please please don't have sex with the windows open. It's really not as much fun as you... (20 May 2008)

Long time no see

A lot's happened since I was able to post last - I've traveled to Pennsylvania, Hawaii, California, and Texas, celebrated a wedding anniversary for the first time, qualified for my first national swim meet, competed in that national swim meet,... (14 May 2008)

Officially psyched

The swim meet is coming up and starts this Friday. This is a Big Deal because it's the only short course yards meet of the year, it's the first meet I've swum in in two years, and because... The Adversary... (24 February 2008)

Something I will never tire of

I can't even describe the way my stomach does a happy little somersault every time I see Cory's hand and see the ring on his wedding finger. Of course, right now I only get to see that in photos. I... (10 February 2008)

Saner heads prevail

In the run-up to Super Tuesday, it seems that a lot of other pretty important news stories are being glossed over. Luckily, in between speculation about who will win in what state and blah blah blah (OH MY GOD, PEOPLE,... ( 5 February 2008)

Pull your pants up, man

It's old news by now: several communities throughout America are passing some form of legislation that bans, of all things, baggy pants. Don't get me wrong, I think the the way some guys wear their pants is ridiculous and god... (28 January 2008)

Not quite a resolution

I'm not big on New Year's resolutions. Personally, I don't see why any day of the year isn't a good day to set a goal, and face it, if you make a goal on your own time you're much more... (17 January 2008)

Because flooding Yosemite Valley isn't wasteful enough!

In Anchorage we get our water from Eklutna Lake, one of the single most stunning places on Earth. And yet, even in Alaska, we are not immune from the disgusting trappings of excess, I am talking about, of course, bottled... (17 January 2008)

Happiness is hugging a giant tree

Cory took me to Yosemite for my birthday (yes, he's the best husband ever!). In Yosemite they have giant sequoias. I got to hug one. I can die happy now. Happiness is hugging a giant sequoia!... (29 November 2007)

Cream cheese does not a yummy meal make

I'm not a big fan of adding fats to everything for flavor. It's a serious cheater route. Anyone can make something laced with butter taste good, but real culinary skill comes from, well, being more sophisticated in your approach to... (17 November 2007)

Pawesome!

HOORAY! Sienna is coming back to Alaska in five days!!! She's been gone for three months and I've missed her so much... luckily my work schedule is finally stabilizing to the point where I can properly take care of a... (14 November 2007)

This Fish and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Morning

When I woke up this morning (at 4:30!) I didn't have gum in my hair. But that doesn't mean that I was going to get a reprieve. I had left my swimming bag at work yesterday and didn't realize it... ( 2 November 2007)

Confessions of a closeted yarn freak

So I have this hobby. It's kind of a dark little secret for me. It's just so... girly. See, here's the thing. ... I knit. No, really! It's a good thing, for the benefit of humanity! I knit things to... (31 October 2007)

Fifty-fifty

The equinox is the great equalizer: even in Alaska, land of the Midnight Sun (or the neverending night, depending on who you ask), we're getting 12 hours of daylight. But we're all just completely bitching and moaning about it. "It's... (24 September 2007)

Like a drug

I wish I could say that I haven't been blogging recently because Alaska is so much cooler than my computer and so I've been out frolicking in the gift that is known as summer. And while yes, Alaska is without... (28 August 2007)

Is Snape a very bad man or is he just emo?

The event that I've been simultaneously anticipating and dreading for seven years is almost here! So, given that there aren't many things that I enjoy more than curling up with a good Harry Potter book (or six, and soon, seven),... (10 July 2007)

It's good to be loved

This morning I was lazing in bed in that comfy and oh-so-snuggy state in between waking and sleep, savoring that luxury that the weekends provide where you can stay in bed until you're good and ready to get up. Sienna... ( 8 July 2007)

Basil betrayal in my own back yard

All spring and summer I've been humming a snug self-satisfied little tune to myself. Why, you ask? Because I am growing my own herbs in my back yard. Oh yes, glorious rosemary, sage, and oregano, oh-so-fresh and free for the... ( 7 July 2007)

Poop and pizza are mutually exclusive

In honor of Dave and Amy's going away, last night a group of us congregated at that famous Alaskan brewpub and pizzeria, the Moose's Tooth. This place is totally great and is always crowded, especially during the summer. It's extremely... ( 3 July 2007)

Cory + Stacey = bliss!

I've been getting complaints that I'm not posting pictures where you can actually see, y'know, my face. GEEZ! So pushy! Isn't it enough for you people that I post pictures of my new husband beaming at me and I write... (17 May 2007)

A Tail of Woe

(I'm not done posting wedding pictures! This was just too classic to put off posting until I have exhausted the nuptial tales!) While Cory and I were engaged I was doing a lot of traveling. So much traveling, in fact,... (16 May 2007)

Look out or you'll get smacked in the face with calla lilies!

Right after the not-so-ambiguous nod to the deflowering of the bride came the bouquet toss (I think - remember that this whole thing was a blur?). Now, at this point it is important to remember that there is a reason... (14 May 2007)

It's garter time - escandaloso!

As I've said before (and will probably say for the rest of my life), our wedding reception was so much fun and went by so quickly that so much of it seemed like a total blur - especially those traditional... (13 May 2007)

Photographic evidence of the hitchedness

Now that the thank-you notes are in the mail, I can officially do photo- and web-related stuff without my conscience screaming at me. The entire wedding went by entirely too quickly -- it was so much fun and there was... (11 May 2007)

Hitched!

It's official! Cory and I were married on April 15th of this year. I've just returned back to Alaska after a beautiful ceremony in Napa Valley, an amazing honeymoon in Italy, and a few days of enjoying the newlywed matrimonial... (25 April 2007)

The dice are in another's hand

Today has been a fairly devastating day. Y'know the type, one of those days where you begin to seriously think about some pretty big choices you've made in your life and you begin to ponder how it will affect the... ( 2 November 2006)

A slippery slope of nucleotides

Today's scary wake-up call is brought to you by Escapades of Reason. There is so much in both Jared's post and the article that it was based on that just screamed "slippery slope" in my mind -- it was like... (26 September 2006)

How considerate!

Ticket to Seoul - $1334.77 0.36 fl oz of Refresh Contacts rewetting drops - $6.99 Actually getting to use said eyedrops on a 24-hour trip to Korea, thereby preventing anguish-provoked enucleation and thus being able to see that face you've... (26 September 2006)

If you get letters like this from me consider it a wake-up call

Dear Drivers On Dark Roads on Dark Alaska Nights: Yes, it is dark outside. Yes, it is hard to see. Yes, I want to drive with my brights on because there are big scary MOOSAGES just waiting to run out... (22 September 2006)

Alaska, you know I love you, but sometimes you're just weird

Hopefully by now it is painfully apparent that I am in love with living in Alaska. From my sidebar-bio in which I proudly proclaim myself an 'ecstatic Alaskan' to lens which is rapidly filling with Alaska shots to a few... (30 August 2006)

Wild encounters with Alaska wildlife

As of two days ago I've been in Alaska for nine months. I'd always heard that Anchorage is such a new city that a lot of wildlife still lives in the city, so here I thought I would talk about... (20 August 2006)

Dooming my dog to a sexless life

On Friday I'm taking a step that cannot be undone: Sienna is getting spayed. This is something that I'm having a lot of emotional turbulence over. See, it's like this. I'm totally smitten by my dog (if that wasn't already... (15 August 2006)

Crazy Pills

I heard a joke at work today (which was kind of surprising given the political demographic and the overwhelming preference for Fox News vice CNN there) that had me in stitches for a good five minutes. Jeremy was lucky enough... (18 July 2006)

Brick.

This weekend, at the suggestion of some of my co-workers, I went to see Brickat the Bear Tooth. While I felt really disturbed during some parts of the movie and I walked away from it with very mixed feelings, I... (17 July 2006)

A place where doggies roam free

I take Sienna to University Lake, one of the dog parks in Anchorage, almost every night. It's great because it's a place where dogs can truly be dogs and can swim, run, chase, fetch, wrestle, and play with logs of... (16 July 2006)

It LIVES!

Man, have I ever neglected this for the last three months! I have a good excuse, I swear: Shortly after I learned how to cross-country ski (see previous entry!) I got a puppy! She required quite a bit of looking... ( 7 July 2006)

G sine theta! G sine theta!

I went cross-country skiing for the third time today. We've been having a lot of crossover temperatures (below and above freezing) and so the snow conditions are getting really bad, leading to very slick ice/snow and quite a bit of... (23 March 2006)

Anniversaries, eavesdropping, and a charming reminder of Hitler

Yesterday, to mark the third anniversary of the invasion of Iraq, our classy Vice President Dick Cheney spent the day not visiting maimed veterans of the war or the families of those who have lost loved ones or even anything... (21 March 2006)

Up for grabs

In swimming, one has to accept a certain level of risk.... not just of drowning, not just of swimming in water that some six-year-old has invariably peed in, but of getting grabbed in all sorts of places that you would... (20 March 2006)

Swimming upstream

Went to swim practice this morning for the first time since I've been back. I couldn't go back earlier since I had either the Korean Death Flu or SARS -- maybe both. At the same time. This was a very... (15 March 2006)

Wax on, rip off

Note: This entry was written on 13 February but was scheduled to post the day I arrived in Korea (to preserve the surprise), but, uhm, didn't. Here it is now, with a little extra tacked on to the end: So... (14 March 2006)

Kamsahamnida! - part three

Our third day in Seoul also marked our last. We slept in late, grabbed breakfast and set out. Cory wanted to check out the Korean War Museum just down the street from where we were staying, so we struck out... (13 March 2006)

Kamsahamnida! - part two

Our second day in Seoul Cory and I decided that hey, we were in Korea so we should go to the DMZ. Our tour bus picked us up at 8 and off we went. I've heard it said that a... (13 March 2006)

Kamsahamnida! - part one

On the second of March, I struck out on a grand adventure to Korea whose primary purpose was to go see Cory. Since Korea is on another continent, heading out was quite a lengthy process. From Seattle it was an... (13 March 2006)

A reconciliation of two lives

Right now I am in an unhappy limbo. I had settled into an existence where I had adjusted to a life alone, one where my companion was physically inaccessible but still there verbally. My week in Korea with him was... (12 March 2006)

This is why I left.

It's 13 degrees here in Anchorage right now. That's about par for the course here in Alaska in Februrary. But today I go to Dallas. The high there today is SEVENTY NINE. And tomorrow? EIGHTY SIX. It's FEBRUARY. Did Texas... (28 February 2006)

Schroedinger's fetus

I could use something a little lighthearted right about now, so here's some Amusing Geekery: A couple of weeks before the birth of his second daughter, I asked my previously featured co-worker what name they had selected for her. "I... (27 February 2006)

In memoriam - part two

Following quickly on the heels of yesterday's bad news about Jake, I got the news that I had been dreading for several weeks now: my Grandma had passed away as well. I'm hurriedly making preparations to both leave for Dallas... (27 February 2006)

In memoriam

Jake Moose Moore 1993-2006 Jake and his Frisbee as they were meant to be To my beloved Jakey-Poo: This morning I was told that you had passed away yesterday. I know the last year and a half had been a... (26 February 2006)

At civil war's door

Things are not looking good in Iraq. This does not surprise me. There are serious problems there that significantly predate the arbitrary post-WWI gluing together of several regions with no regard to religion, race, ethnicity, culture, or history. There are... (25 February 2006)

A finishing school for aspiring lap swimmers

Because writing this could probably get me in trouble, I am going to disclaimer right now: I neither mind nor dislike sharing lanes with people in the pool. What I mind is a total lack of situational awareness and a... (24 February 2006)

A belated Valentine's Day message

Last night I sat down and tried -- really, truly tried -- to write an ode of sorts to Cory. Unfortunately, last night was one of those nights when my brain simply didn't understand why he has to be so... (15 February 2006)

Moosage!

As I left my house for swimming this morning, I was looking at the ground as I often do because it helps prevent me from slipping and falling on my ass on the ice. I immediately recognized some feet in... (15 February 2006)

As the scythe falls, it cuts down the tallest of them all

You should be glad that you are not in my family this year. Still feeling the wake from the last year's losses, my parents are preparing me for the loss of yet another grandparent -- this time, my Mom's mom.... (13 February 2006)

It's a question of etiquette... or perhaps a question of stalking

Let's play a game of "New and Interesting Social Situations Brought On By That Ever-Wonderful By-Product of the Internet, The Blogosphere!" By way of introduction, we'll start by supposing that you are at a social gathering full of people that... (12 February 2006)

Too much ecstatic-ess for a proper subject. SQUEEEE!

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEE! I have tickets to Korea! In THREE WEEKS I get to see Cory again!!!!!!!! I am doing the Mother Of All Happy Dances over here. Seriously. Y'know how Kermit did that crazy spastic dance while screaming "YAAAAAAY!"? Imagine him... ( 8 February 2006)

Learned today

It doesn't matter how much it feels like you need to throw up during an especially fast swim, so long as it never progresses beyond "feels." One must be proactive when going outside after swimming when it comes to drying... (26 January 2006)

The first Justice confirmation sponsored by a major brewery

Anyone else scared about what is happening to what is arguably our most powerful branch of government? I may be coming late to this conversation, but I've been really angered by what I've been hearing over the last couple of... (26 January 2006)

An introvert's frustration

I think I would be much less introverted if other people didn't suck so much at conversation. What I'm talking about is a lack of consideration for the person you're talking to. Far too often, my attempts to have an... (25 January 2006)

Jackpot: Poopsicle!

I think we're in the middle of the "two cold weeks in January" that I was repeatedly warned about. This is a bummer since I don't have to work tomorrow, so I had been hoping to stop by Sheila and... (24 January 2006)

Dreaming of being a rocket scientist

The mission to Pluto has successfully been launched! Planetary scientists must be extraordinarily patient people... Not to mention young, given that they are going to have to wait ten years to get a return on this investment. If you're too... (21 January 2006)

A new, green mode of energy production!

I don't normally do this, but this was too awesome to not post so it can be remembered in some way. [I am discussing the wide variety of cookies that I can make at this moment and then correlating my... (11 January 2006)

An IMer's Lament

To: Mimi, Swim Coach Extraordinaire Re: Your claim that people who are good at 400 IMs have no right to complain about them I don't care how fantastic at 400 IMs you are, those suckers hurt. Sure, we still like... (10 January 2006)

How to drink on a swing shift and not be an alcoholic

There are many predictable effects to working on a swing shift: messed up sleeping patterns, weakened immune system, seasonal affective disorder, and poor eating habits, to name a few. What they don't tell you is that one of the new... ( 7 January 2006)

Alaska: it's bigger than Texas!

It occurred to me that I haven't written since long before I arrived here in Alaska, which would undoubtedly lead you to the inescapable conclusion that I had been eaten by a bear. Fear not, gentle reader, this is not... ( 6 January 2006)

Good for the soul

Moving away from Washington had been (and continues to be) hard on me. It's difficult to go from such a lush, mountainous place that nourishes all forms of life to such a flat, brown and dry existence. It's as simple... (19 September 2005)

Baby boom

About two years ago, a very strange thing began to occur: My friends started getting married. At 21, this seemed a little weird to me and it was an idea that I had to get used to. I knew that... (17 September 2005)

The grapes of wrath

On the occasion that I have a glass of wine, I like to take my time to enjoy it and truly savor it. Requisite to this is getting to know the wine before drinking it. Your average sophisticate of the... (16 September 2005)

"I have man shoulders"

Nike, it appears, has launched a new advertising campaign that is targeting a little-tapped audience of women who have made a concerted effort to not look like the waifs that have been getting progressively more emaciated throughout the years. This... (21 August 2005)

The winds of change

I spend so much time ragging on Texas and bemoaning my continued existence in the state that when it actually deserves some commendation, I am willing (however grudgingly) to give it to it. Note: this post is not actually about... (12 August 2005)

It's spelled "dromiceiomimus"

I remember the days when I was in elementary school, y'know those days, the ones where dinosaurs were the raddest thing ever to rock your sorry little 8-year-old world. (Not that this has changed, by the way. I still get... ( 9 August 2005)

Fleeting

Ephemeral. It's long been one of my favorite words... It possesses that rare quality in which the sound of the word evokes a flawless image of what it is describing. I'm in an ephemeral mood tonight. One doesn't hear that... ( 8 August 2005)

Harry Potter and the Cash Cow of Azerbaijan

I've put off writing about this for a while, but now I feel it is safe to, as the book has been out for multiple weeks and all of you who could complain about me giving things away have had... ( 2 August 2005)

Painting with a dark brush

I can be entirely too judgmental of a person. I would have to say that this is my biggest fault as a person. It's strange, isn't it, how someone who takes so much joy at the simple things in life... (27 June 2005)

Caring is creepy

"Hey there, how're you doing?" "Eh, well, I burned my breakfast, my neighbor ran over my dog, and I have the worst rash on my left ass." "..." A couple of weeks ago, while feeling extremely frustrated by people who... (23 June 2005)

The scythe

I think the last couple of weeks have been what we like to call a rough month for my family. I had gone my whole twenty-three years without losing any family members... and then two in a span of just... (12 June 2005)

Important decision!

K, so whenever I get married... Eddie Izzard is so going to be my maid of honor. Seriously. I can't think of anyone else who would look better in green taffeta.... (30 May 2005)

Brain drain

I miss math so much. I miss being intellectually stimulated, I miss my brain being stretched, I miss looking at something totally new, different, and challenging and being excited by it. I know people say that this training is difficult,... (26 May 2005)

Dramalicious

There are some instances in which being the better person doesn't work so well. There is a group of very immature girls in my class who shall henceforth be known as The Sorority. They don't seem to realize that they... (18 May 2005)

Rot.

Some days I feel sick to call myself human. Get me off this ball of dirt.... (13 May 2005)

People who redeemed my day

Despite the fact that I had a major letdown today, there were some very good things that happened today and a couple of co-workers made my list of awesome people. I will present the stories that earned them places on... (30 March 2005)

No learning for you!

Class rosters came down today. Unless some act of Cthulhu happens and an Lt or two breaks a leg, looks like my training will be delayed another two and a half weeks. Trying very hard not to be mopey about... (30 March 2005)

I am more than my uterus.

Why must it always be assumed that a role that I have chosen for my future self is that of wife and mother? Why can it not be understood that I may want nothing to do with procreating? Why is... (28 March 2005)

Rankless dialogues

I met a Marine today. He was at the pool, helping some of his fellow Marines do water training in their BDUs. I was watching him working with another person in the lane next to me, teaching him better technique... (23 March 2005)

Who needs tranquilizers when you've got distilled potatoes?

It's training day 1, and all I remember from my dreams last night was that I needed to wake up in the middle of the night and feed the old elephant some vodka so he didn't get cranky and noisy.... (11 January 2005)

In which I give that which does not love me the boot

It's ok, Gevalia, it really is. I see now that you never really loved me, not the way that I loved you anyway. You certainly never needed me the way I needed you. After you left me, I grieved, I... (28 December 2004)

I bet Slimer totally got in the way of scholarly research

One thing I would like to know: When Sigourney Weaver tasked the Ghostbusters with finding information about Zuul, the demon who was inhabiting her refrigerator, how the hell were they able to make any progress without the Internet? I mean,... (28 December 2004)

It's the undead! Egress egress egress!

Why is it that my room is the only room in the house in which I don't worry about being attacked by zombies? I mean, if my house were to be invaded by legions of the undead, my room would... (27 December 2004)

Today's moment of hilarity

Hearing my mom bust up laughing at "I was saving my virginity for a woman made of breasts!"... (25 December 2004)

Particle-sized zombies

I have come up with the best way ever to visualize the infinite square well/particle in a box from quantum mechanics. Now I know what you're thinking, but stick with me, my story gets better. While being a cute mental... (10 December 2004)

Icy machinations, pizza, and half dead, half alive cats

Reasons that have occurred to me over the last week why Trinity is truly a great place to go to school: Tuesday: I have a four-person Theory of Complex Variables class. This day, I was the only person to show... ( 7 December 2004)

A near miss with catharsis

Talking with my parents today was not nearly as cathartic as I would have liked. When this discussion began, it was about Stacey Giving A Graduation Announcement To Her Aunt And Saying Goodbye Before She Left For San Antonio. I... (28 November 2004)

Father figure

I don't know how my dad does it. He seems to be able to see the good in everyone, no matter how deep down it is buried, and use that knowledge to treat all with equal dignity and respect. He... (27 November 2004)

Permanent rift

My aunt of perforated colon fame has finally been released from all hospitals and rehab facilities. Given my relationship (or lack thereof) with her, I would normally not really care either way about this, but she is living at my... (26 November 2004)

Puppy love

When I arrived home yesterday after my drive from San Antonio to Arlington, I received the greeting that I had expected and looked forward to the most -- the enthusiastic barely-able-to-contain-himself overwhelming joy that emanated from my dog Jake. He... (26 November 2004)

Be FESTIVE, dammit!

Here we are again at that junction where turkeys and stuffing become one. This kicks off what is ominously known as The Holidays that will stretch on in one continuous six-week commercial blur. I not one for this type of... (22 November 2004)

Coffee karma

When I arose this morning, I checked my much loved but very dead coffeemaker for signs of life before brewing a delight that would help my brain forget that I had only had four hours of sleep. Alas, my coffeemaker... (19 November 2004)

Pie Iesu domine, dona eis requiem

My beloved, how could you do this to me? We've been through so much, we've been so many places together! I've professed my love and amazement of your superior qualities numerous times, and this is how you repay me? By... (17 November 2004)

I can smell it

I am getting to the point where I would be oh-so-happy if I never saw another monoid again in my life. Despite my frustration, I'm preparing for the senior project presentation that I give to the math seminar on Thursday.... (16 November 2004)

Whose moral values?

Over the last week and a half I've grown weary of the pundits on the right championing "moral values" as the victor of the recent election. I feel that, just like in the case of patriotism, someone needs to inform... (13 November 2004)

Spiritual self-identification revisted

Some time ago, I found myself in a great deal of emotional and spiritual pain that, due to lack of experience, I was having trouble dealing with. This lead to a great deal of introspection and set me down a... (12 November 2004)

Geneva Conventions? Is that a chocolatier gathering?

Out with the old, in with the new: in this case, John Ashcroft is old and Alberto Gonzales is new. "Hooray!" many of you may be thinking. "Porn will be safe again!" While I might not like porn myself, I... (11 November 2004)

Tree hugger

Two things that irk me about the Trinity Campus: 1. It is an ill-advised soul who buys coffee on campus. It will give you heartburn. What's worse, the coffee isn't even good. If it wasn't burned, bitter, and nasty it... (10 November 2004)

Things written down since I am old and may soon be prone to forgetfulness

Seen and heard on my birthday: Stacey: what would you say to some hot saucer action tonight? Stacey: perhaps some brindles action too Adrienne: mmm Stacey: i haven't been in a while Stacey: and there is no better time for,... (10 November 2004)

A bit of self-indulgent introspection

Every year at about this time I try to sit down and do what I have dubbed a State of the Stacey Address. Though efforts at this have at times been aborted halfway through, I feel that I'm coming up... ( 8 November 2004)

In which I marvel at what can come out of Trinity students' mouths

Found in the Trinitonian, Trinity's weekly student newspaper: "Most people are not for gay marriage," Updegraff said. "The Democratic Party needs to be more conservative with social issues." I was dismayed by this statement. Needs to be more conservative? What... ( 7 November 2004)

No true victor

I want to cry, to wind the clock back twenty-four hours so that everything that has taken place just.... hasn't. I slept horribly last night, continually waking up to check the time, so tempted to check the results. In the... ( 3 November 2004)

Bated breath

At this point, I don't know what to say that hasn't been said by 800,000 other bloggers before me -- except for this: As someone who will be taking the oath of office of an Air Force officer in six... ( 3 November 2004)

Time to discover a part of my Irish heritage

Seven minutes to midnight. I'm beginning to get sick to my stomach thinking about the shit that one of the parties is likely to pull tomorrow night. There have been so many voting scandals that, barring a landslide, how can... ( 2 November 2004)

You are a wonderful person and I like you. But now please shush.

I am an introvert. There. I've said it. I wouldn't think this would be a surprise to many, but when I've told people about this particular self-identification in recent weeks they have either said "huh?" or "you? An introvert?" or... ( 1 November 2004)

Playing politician

John Kerry has made it "very clear" that he doesn't believe that marriage should be extended to gay and lesbian couples, but I'm not sure that I believe him. I think he may just be playing politician and hiding some... (31 October 2004)

T minus four days and counting

Election Day, now only a scant four days away, has really snuck up on me. In just four days we will, for better or worse, know who's going to be the captain on this sinking ship. The scary part is... (29 October 2004)

Fuck you too, you too-high pH and your causing of "spaghetti and meatballs under the microscope" phenomenon!

The only thing worse than a week of exams is the week (or two) after. So. Burned. Out. I was doing so well before midterms, keeping up with my work, generally being a good Staceyfish, but the intensity of midterms... (26 October 2004)

Morbidity and expatriation

It seems to be pretty widely known now that the anticipated theme for my upcoming birthday festivities was going to be the Gashlycrumb Tinies (come as your favorite one! I would be Neville, but it's hard to have ennui during... (20 October 2004)

Slack-jawed and vacant

I think that Trinity is about to be taken over by zombies. Walking to class today, I noticed a much-smaller-than-usual crowd making the pilgrimage with and against me. Shortly after arriving at my first class, my professor closed the door... (20 October 2004)

Take cover!

My blogs were attacked by Evil Texas Holdem Bots of Doomnation. Let me back up. I've been noticing (on my blogs and on others) that bots for e-commerce sites have started leaving advertisements in the form of snarky comments that... (19 October 2004)

Zombies are out there, dammit, and they are going to eat me!

I learned an important lesson over the last week: Even though a given zombie movie may be fucking hilarious and bloody brilliant, it is still a zombie movie. Sure, there will be amazing moments with the oblivious living, wheechair zombies,... (18 October 2004)

Best week ever.

Ever had those types of days (or weeks, or hell, years) where you wanted to just: Drop out of school, Move into your dorm's study lounge, Bring your espresso machine and a healthy supply of illy, Open up the McLean... ( 6 September 2004)

Joy!

The four-month rollercoaster ride has finally come to a close! After the math department not offering a class I need to graduate, then considering offering another class that I suggested that would fulfill the same requirement (and had six other... (27 August 2004)

Papering the dog

My doggie (remember him???) turned eleven a couple of months ago, so one would think that the adage "you can't teach an old dog new tricks" would definitely apply to him. Well, if there is one thing that Jake is... (10 August 2004)

"I think I have cookie dough in my beard"

smoore presents In Quest of Cookie Dough, A Play The Players: Stacey, the humble playwright Mike, the boyfriend of said humble playwright The Situation: Not having sampled this earthly delight in over a year, Stacey is craving cookie dough. The... ( 8 August 2004)

The ties that bind, the bonds that split

I feel fundamentally wrong tonight somehow. I think a part of me is very sad... as though I am being pruned. I feel robbed, hurt, and as though there is great injustice in the world. Does everyone feel like this... ( 6 August 2004)

Save the Trees!

The whole summer has come down to this -- my last two days of work. I'm saddened by it, in a way, since the summer has really flown by and I genuinely like my job and the people I work... ( 5 August 2004)

Purist

I love cappuccinos. Absolutely adore them. When made right, with good milk and some fresh illy espresso, they are absolutely delectable. And for the record, made right means one third espresso, one third steamed milk, one third foam. That is... ( 4 August 2004)

Bigger is not always Better

Working at a pool, I see a huge range of body types, from svelte to substantial, with a large slant towards substantial. Granted, I live in a "fat city": Arlington (where my parents live) is #8 on the list of... ( 3 August 2004)

Either/Or

I went blog-and-link hopping tonight, and, sure enough, ended up at Carol Queen's website (a staff member at Good Vibrations, for those of you not in the know). I clicked on the link to her opinion page and was presented... ( 3 August 2004)

Pages

I've been getting a lot of quality reading in this summer, which, of course, is a good thing since my reading list was gigantic at the beginning of the summer. Now it's just moderately huge. Here are some highlights: Underworld... (30 July 2004)

A sydelbow-like address to patrons of the pool

Dear Mister 300-Pound Man: I am tired of seeing your ass. This is the second night in a row, and you've only been in here twice. Not a good record. For the love, be more diligent about keeping your derriere... (30 July 2004)

Conflicted

My aunt was recently taken to the emergency room because she had been throwing up for several days and her abdomen was severely distended. They initially suspected a bowel obstruction, but in the last couple of days some of her... (29 July 2004)

Take a bite out of it

Public indecency is an interesting sort of crime. Why, you ask? Well, let's look at your garden-variety felonies. Thievery, murder, rape, pillaging, and burning are all always crimes. There's always a victim, someone has been wronged. On the other hand,... (12 July 2004)

The chicken and the egg

It's not uncommon that the governmental system in place in a country influences the religion (or lack thereof) practiced within its borders. A prominent example of this is any of a myriad of communist states that officially practice atheism. As... (30 June 2004)

Look out, it's a baby with 150 legs!

Stacey's word of the day: sesquipedalian. Its use in a sentence: "Parents who bore their friends with stories of their sesquipedalian toddlers will be put to shame by baby Ralph." Stacey's train of thought: "Hmm, sesqui-, like 'sesquicentennial,' meaning one... ( 7 June 2004)

Social pressure vs. developed morality

A few mornings ago I was sitting in Mike's basement, eating breakfast as we leafed through the newspaper. We both happened upon a particularly horrible editorial that blamed ritualized disregardments of the Geneva Conventions on the lack of "social pressures"... ( 2 June 2004)

Squeegee to the max!

Ah, another day at work. This is still the greatest job ever. I have more perks to add to my previous list! When I closed tonight, I used a huge squeegee on the deck after it had been hosed off.... (27 May 2004)

Fishy, fishy, fishy, fish

I must have the best summer job in the world. What other jobs: Pay you for spending up to half (potentially even more) of your time reading? Require you to manhandle your boss to even be eligible to work there?... (25 May 2004)

Whole, peaceful.

It's Friday for now, until the clock hands complete their procession about their face. I've been home for a week and a scrap thereof. Let me modify that. I have been back from school for a week and a scrap... (22 May 2004)

Nocturnal disturbances

These strange dreams have got to stop. I mean, seriously. Last night, the following happened: Dr. Aars aged about 30 years and was totally brutal when grading my Astrophysics final, even though I r0x0red its b0x0rs. Like, he took off... (10 May 2004)

The Incredibly True Adventures of Astrophysics Girl!

I've been working on my astrophysics take-home exam all afternoon, and well, I can now say that my brain has been effectively removed from my head during the process. Here I outline the chronicles of Stacey while her brain is... (25 April 2004)

Objections and objectifications

It's so nice to have some time to myself for a few hours.... drinking coffee, listening to Chicane as loudly as I want to, wearing my comfy pants and leaning against the wall as I lounge in my chair. It's... (20 April 2004)

WTF mate?

This week's "Oh SHIT!" moment has been brought to you by the Trinity University Math Department. Class schedules were released this week. They're not offering a class that I was counting on that I need to take to be able... ( 1 April 2004)

A brief hiatus

Last week was... wonderful. I finally made it back up to Washington and Oregon for the first time in a year and it was simply great to be back home. It was so refreshing to see all of my friends... (25 March 2004)

A ricer revelation

So you know how some guys like to drive around really fast in their riced-out Honda-Jets like they're trying to prove something (like, oh, penis size)? This is rather counter-productive since, as those of you familiar with relativity know, the... (25 March 2004)

Food is not the enemy

Today as I was perusing some random blogs, I came across an entry about a drug formerly called Anorex that, as you might have guessed, is a weight-loss drug which works by suppressing appetite. This post spawned a wealth of... (23 March 2004)

My orientation is "confused"

By and large, I do not understand human sexuality, or more precisely, I don't understand human sexual orientation. This stems from a total misunderstanding of how people can be exclusively attracted to one sex. What is it about a person... ( 3 March 2004)

The March phenomenon

My birthday is in early November. I am not alone in this accomplishment, no, far from it in fact. The area around the second week of November has a very high density of birthdays. Why? I'll let you count forward... ( 2 March 2004)

That tree is trying to give you syphilis

You know how you're always told when you're a kid that you learn something new every day? Today I learned this: Plants that reproduce sexually can get STDs. My mom would be so proud.... ( 2 March 2004)

Getting my hands dirty

Last week was hell -- complete and utter hell. I experienced total pandemonium in my classes and in ROTC with four midterms and three 5am mornings, not to mention that I was still recovering from the flu-like thing that I... (29 February 2004)

Government intervention

Chris made a post in which he stated that he was against gay marriage because he believed in was a sin, and I felt compelled to respond to it. Here is what I wrote back, slightly modified: You state that... (25 February 2004)

I cannot fathom today's events.

Today the leader of our country had the audacity to ask Congress for a Constitutional amendment defining marriage as being exclusively between a man and a woman. Thankfully, the Democratic party has officially declared that they are opposed to any... (24 February 2004)

Anger. Much anger.

Yes, Mr. Bush, giving gays the right to be married will damage the definition of marriage. Just like giving women the right to vote damages the definition of democracy. You fucktard.... (24 February 2004)

Mostly harmless

I think I'm finally getting the upper hand on this green sweater of disease business. It's about bloody time too, since I've been running a fever since Wednesday afternoon. I'm very much ready to be better, as I miss all... (22 February 2004)

Kill the lil' virii

When you were a kid, did you ever read a book called "Germs Make Me Sick!"? It was this great book that talked about how, well, germs made you sick. It had this part about how viruses took over cells,... (17 February 2004)

Life, the universe, and everything

Conversation today in the Math Lab: Nathan: "What am I doing here?" Me: "Is that a philosophical or physical question?" Someone (possibly Nathan or Shane): "What is the meaning of life?" Me: "Forty-two!" While this is certainly considered a flippant... (17 February 2004)

Hitler never played Risk as a kid...

Tomorrow (technically today) is the good ol' VD. Now, I'm a low maintenance kind of woman, and nothing would make me happier than getting to sleep in with Mike, wake up gradually with lots of snuggling, y'know, just general types... (14 February 2004)

Slush != snow

You may hear rumors that there has been snow spotted in San Antonio. However, this judgment has been passed by natives of the south, and I say that they are largely wrong. Yes, we had some sleet, but as someone... (14 February 2004)

Homeward bound

Looks like things are coming together for spring break, which is, as Wayne would put it, excellent. Going to borrow the funds from my parents and pay them back when I get a job this summer. Which means.... I'll get... ( 8 February 2004)

"Two four six eight, brainwash and teach you hate" (thank you Charles Mingus)

Today was another day in which I learned that I have far too much faith in humanity. I first learned this lesson four years ago when I was a senior in high school, taking an English class at Clark College.... ( 3 February 2004)

0/0, revisited

You may recall an argument that I had with a certain poet several months ago regarding the result when zero was divided by zero. He insisted that this quantity was one, by something similar to induction, but backwards. I, the... ( 1 February 2004)

A course of anti-Bush faire with a side of "You're an Idiot"

Who breeds such hate in our youth, and why do people stand by and let it happen? Who elects a president who makes hate and oppresion part of his national policy... ( 1 February 2004)

Punching Nuns

My mother watched The Sound of Music recently, which is a god-awful movie by most accounts -- especially if you dislike having trite and annoying songs stuck in your head for an interminable amount of time. But the biggest grievance... (12 January 2004)

I am going to go crazy

I've been here too long: my mother is driving me crazy. If I didn't know who it was that I inherited all of my micromanegerial tendencies from before, there is no doubt in my mind now. It would be very... ( 7 January 2004)

What the World Needs Now

Two days ago I got back from a great road trip with Mike, and luckily, we were just in time for dinner. Which, of course, meant that it was time for him to be subject to the gentle grilling that... ( 7 January 2004)

Home != sweet

I drove home today for the Thanksgiving holidays, as college students are wont to do this time of year. I use the term "home" loosely. I remember the first time I made that drive thirteen months ago, and I remember... ( 3 November 2003)

A day that can't be had this this time of year in Portland

It's a beautiful day with a deep blue expansive sky free of any blemish. I'm enjoying a delectable cup of coffee that pleases my palate and warms me from the inside. It's one of those days when you just know... (27 October 2003)

Sex, oh what tangled webs we weave

So it's been an interesting couple of days. I figured out about a week ago that there was something going on between Adrienne and Pete. Fine, I figured, Adrienne is a big girl, and if she can put up with... (27 October 2003)

Enticement

I stood, tantalized, under the teasing glimmer of the Milky Way. I swam naked under the stars and watched as Sirius rose over the horizon. What Could Be Better?... (19 October 2003)

Giddy

I think that a great name for a new type of wine would be "The Seduce-o-Matic."... (17 October 2003)

Quicksilver

What here on earth can rival the beauty that rains down upon us from the rest of the universe? Tonight I was moved to tears by the simple sight of the pale silver light being poured down upon the lawn.... (11 October 2003)

Contact

What follows references a conversation I had some time ago with Justin: I remember talking to you at the very beginning of the school year about Contact. I had just begun reading the book and hadn't yet seen the movie.... (11 October 2003)

Unexpected

Never before had I been moved to tears by simple beauty.... (11 October 2003)

Meditations

The week has left me feeling weary. On the way home, I stopped at the fountain near the tower to meditate. I began by looking up to the sky, taking in the moon, watching as the clouds swirled ceaselessly about... ( 9 October 2003)

Randomness

I have nothing to say, but dammit, I'm going to say it. In a very random, unorganized, and disjoint manner. I think I'm actually frustrated that I've had so little of any intellectual or philosophical value to say recently. Or,... ( 7 October 2003)

Some days like these

Today is one of those days where I feel as though I have so much to give and no one to properly receive it. I went to services alone today. I was in one of those moods where even if... ( 5 October 2003)

Square two, perhaps

There have been a lot of things building up in my emotional state over the last couple of days. It all began last Thursday when, in an AIM conversation, Peter had told me that he was feeling lonely. This was... ( 1 October 2003)

Jump back

I feel like I'm back to square fucking one. And I have no idea where to go from here.... ( 1 October 2003)

Tres, tres, tres

Tonight was... weird. We had candidate induction tonight at Saltgrass. Great food, great people, a good time was had by all. And then one of my fellow cadets suggested that a better time be had by some of us, rather... (26 September 2003)

Wisdom

Life Lesson #341: Be sensitive to your choice of shoulders to cry on before you commence said crying.... (25 September 2003)

Try and pigeonhole me

Once again, I find myself on an interesting spiritual journey. I suppose that sometimes it's too easy to forget that it's a journey that I'm always on. I've had several experiences in my life recently that leave me unsatisfied with... (25 September 2003)

Illogical

Yesterday I recalled one of my earliest childhood memories. It happened when we were living in Omaha, so I was probably about four years old. I was playing on the playground when an older girl - perhaps about six or... (25 September 2003)

A letter from a dear friend

Dear Stacey, Please remember your Axiom, otherwise known as the Fundamental Theorem of Boys. Thank you, Your Brain.... (19 September 2003)

Pituitary

I've been feeling much better this week. I'm thinking that last week's emotional drama slash turmoil were a byproduct of three major factors: Stress, Severe lack of sleep, and Hormones. All these lead to a state of emotional instability and... (18 September 2003)

Islandness

Today was another beautiful day. It, in addition to my recent generally more appreciative of all things aesthetic mood, reminded me of some interesting arguments I had heard against the existence of a heaven-like place. You can't know happiness without... (12 September 2003)

I felt wonderfully centered after my time with the night sky. I was calmed, was at peace, and felt like I had regained some perspective that had previously been lost. If I was ever going to worship something, it would... ( 7 September 2003)

Anywhere but here

I'm going to go for a drive Out, out past 1604 Where the skies remain unsullied by offensive light Out to where I can only see the light I choose to see To see those glittering constants Who remind me... ( 6 September 2003)

So cute

... you've got pollen on your nose...... (18 August 2003)

There are times when you're so happy that words don't work. So a happy dance will have to suffice. *happy dance!* Squared.... (17 August 2003)

What part of 'I love you' didn't you understand?

I can't decide which is worse: being blindsided or being given false hope. I'm so confused, sad, hurt, angry, and all applicable synonyms right now. It's all such a waste, such a waste. This could have been so easily prevented... (14 August 2003)

On friendship

On Monday night, when I had just been hit with the very last thing I had ever expected to hear, one thought that continually streaked through my head was, "If he leaves tonight, who can I talk to about this?... (13 August 2003)

Trappings and tears

There is a chasm between someone forcing another person to change and helping a person along a personal journey that they've known somewhere they need to take but didn't consciously realize it. How can I communicate that to you? Through... (13 August 2003)

So inconsolably sad

I have been struggling under a crippling weight today. I have forgiven him for what happened last night, but that does not heal the wounds. The deep, gashing wounds that I for so long have been invincible to. The deluge... (12 August 2003)

Strength

Is this what being a strong woman is? Refusing to wipe the tears from your face as you do what he should have done? As you pick up the slack and do what has not been done all day, even... (30 July 2003)

Things I don't appreciate

So, I've worked twelve hours in the last two days. I will now share the Crowning All Time Suck Moments from each day with you: Yesterday: An eighty year old man who was shopping with his wife stuck his tongue... (24 July 2003)

The ridiculousness of pants

As I was driving back from dropping Pete off at work today, I drove by a guy walking his dog. There was nothing unusual about that man besides the fact that he was wearing a bathrobe, and even that is... (24 July 2003)

six apart

I've long enjoyed playing the Six Degrees of Separation game in my head. My dad had some crazy connections back in the day, and as a result in addition to some of the connections I've made myself, I've got some... (18 July 2003)

Equilibrium

Over the last couple of weeks, I've noticed some interesting changes in my personality. In high school, I enjoyed spending time with lots of friends, but I also treasured time that I had to myself to just do whatever I... (18 July 2003)

Exhibitionists!

Outside in the middle of the country? A bright, bright moon, beautiful stars, and singing crickets? On the hood of your car? Oh my.... (18 July 2003)

On gettin' some - part the second

As I have been known to say before, I enjoy sex primarily because of the emotional intimacy that it provides as opposed to simply the physical. I was thinking back over past relationships, as I am apt to do at... (17 July 2003)

Pedestrian bowling

So, I originally sat down to write about how I was disturbed by some of the reporting on the accident that happened when an 86 year old man ran down copious people at a farmer's market, but it's evolved into... (17 July 2003)

Twenty five minus five equals you're an idiot

So I hate to keep bitching about people at work, but some of them... So a $5 coupon just got mailed out. Yes, a static $5 coupon. Means it's $5 no matter what. Not a percentage, just.... $5. You with... (16 July 2003)

"Can you find my coupon?"

HOLY BUJEEZUS MAN. Get this. This woman came through my register last night and bought a bunch of stuff. Nothing unusual there. She used a coupon. Again, nothing to send up a red flag over. I hand her her receipt... (13 July 2003)

Geeeetarrrrrrrs, and lazor guns.....

Somehow, listening to Pete and Eric play the horrendous song "Motorcycle Driveby" has inspired me to learn how to play the guitar. And, interestingly enough, it seems to be having an effect that I did not anticipate: Pete is now... (11 July 2003)

On gettin' some

Quoth Sandra as she left in the middle of May: "It's gonna be SexFest 2003, isn't it?" And one would think that she was right, given that Pete and I often called weekends that when left to our own devices.... (11 July 2003)

Words

I like words. A lot. Not really so much using them to speak a great deal, but more along the lines of amassing underused words and adding them to my vocabulary. But be warned: This is a great way to... (11 July 2003)

The breast management project

So I've been spending the last couple of weeks getting back into shape. To my amusement, in the confines of my own head, I have taken to calling these physical expenditures The Breast Management Project. See, these mammary attachments to... (10 July 2003)

0/0

And all the mathematician can do is stand on the sidelines and shake her head. As if she knows better.... ( 1 July 2003)

The thoughts of a designer

Redesigning is a slow process. I am not equipped with a personal muse. Rather, it is very easy for me to get caught up in designs I have made before... to follow their lead and get stuck in their rut.... (17 June 2003)

On my mind...

I'm thinking of resurrecting my old website. Well, I'm not sure if resurrecting is an accurate term, since its new incarnation would be wholly different, but at least it would be something that would update itself. I'd most likely center... (15 June 2003)

Orson Scott Card can have my babies. All of them.

Holy. Buhjeezus. I thought that Ender's Game was a great book.... And it was eclipsed by Ender's Shadow.... But they were both put to shame, blown to bits, by Shadow of the Hegemon. Orson Scott Card is some sort of... (12 June 2003)

Ho hum

I had been writing a masterfully crafted witty and fascinating dialogue (in the form of Plato and Galileo, if you will) exploring the topic of artificial sentience and morality. These things normally take me quite a while to write, so... (11 June 2003)

Where's my voice?

After being privy to several entries and comments in people's journals over the past several days, I would like to announce that I am hereby very glad that we have an electoral college. I mean, really, people, really. You've got... ( 5 June 2003)

"Equal rights" for pre-born people?

There have been a lot of things (such as legislation, discussions, and in-your-face propaganda) hurling the issue of abortion into my stream of consciousness recently. This explosive issue has gone through many different phases of consideration in my head up... ( 5 June 2003)

In my skin

So. There was this fabulous party last night. It was an excellent opportunity for us to get skanked out, given that the title of the party was "A Night of Pride and Debauchery." Somehow I got talked into wearing this... ( 3 May 2003)

Thought of today

Why do so many people consider us to be the pinnacle of all creation? I think there are (literally) infinitely many things in this universe that are far older, more beautiful, and more serene than humankind. Look out to the... (27 April 2003)

Zoom zoom zoom

I can't help but feel sorry for cars. They must live a very lonely life. I mean, a big part of the functionality of the car is that it never comes into physical contact with another one. That would be... (27 April 2003)

Put me out of my misery

I find myself being extremely unhappy the last couple of days. This is my complete lack of surprise. I mean, this happens at the end of every semester. It just feels so much worse this semester. I have been having... (25 April 2003)

*Shakes head*

So in our ROTC class we're doing this lesson on the Commander's in-basket right now, where the basic scenario is that your Squadron Commander is in a coma, and you're taking command, and you have to go through everything he's... (23 April 2003)

Bad translations

This semester in a Gender and Religion class, we had an expert on what the Bible has to say about homosexuality come in and speak to us. What he had to say I found really interesting, and I must say... (23 April 2003)

Absolut good

I was thumbing through some of the journals of some people who had left comments in challenging_god, and came across the following statement. "Tonight we remember the darkest and most evil day in history, the day that the Lord Christ... (22 April 2003)

Blasphemous rumors

Why do some people have faith? Why is it that others do not? Is it something that some people are predisposed to, or does that have absolutely nothing to do with it? Is it totally based upon socialization received from... (22 April 2003)

Living in sin

So, I have yet to tell my parents about the fact that I'm going to be living with Pete this summer. And why, exactly, am I freaking out about it? Maybe because the probability of them freaking out is quite... (21 April 2003)

Let's go to Coates...

Now that a few certain of my friends are out of long-term relationships, I've been amusing myself by observing the distinct stages of Breaking Up. We all know and hate these stages for their varying degrees of induced aggravation, but... (20 April 2003)

Annoying

Today's lesson: Living well is not the best revenge if the person you are targeting honestly doesn't care.... (10 April 2003)

Home = where you boot your OS?

Now that I've been back for a week... I again know what home is. I remember, flying in on the plane, looking over the Columbia River and seeing so many familiar sights, like downtown Vancouver, Clark, rival high schools... And... ( 5 January 2003)

Free will in [illusion, christianity, chaos, and socialization]

I've been thinking about free will a lot recently. The question that has been raised in my mind is simply: do we humans have free will? The Illusion I've had some interesting conversations on the topic with pro tempore on... (27 December 2002)

The Messiah

I honestly wonder what would happen to the people in this country if the messiah came. And I'm not referring to the Judeo-Christian messiah. What if some wholly different religion that clashes with everything that Americans have ever held dear... (26 December 2002)

I (heart) you

The other night, as Pete and I were beginning to drift into sleep, he asked me what I was thinking about, and I told him about some of my thoughts on love that were on my mind. I talked a... (25 December 2002)

God ?= good

Another interesting idea that came up this weekend is the concept that everything good comes from God. Well, it's very clear to me that there is no universal absolute good, just as there is no universal absolute truth (universal absolute... (24 December 2002)

"Freedom of belief is pernicious... it is nothing but the freedom to be wrong."

I did a lot of thinking this weekend, both inside my head and verbally, bouncing ideas off Pete, who, philosophically, reminds me so much of where I was a year ago. It's so good to be around that kind of... (23 December 2002)

Big thoughs in the small hours

Just some general thoughts on the universe tonight... Train of thought #1: Astronomers have hypothesized that the universe will continue expanding forever.... Meaning that, no matter how much I would like it to be true, the universe will not go... (13 December 2002)

Homelessness does not necessarily equal houselessness

I have decided that I don't like this parents-moving-halfway-through-me-being-in-college business. While it's really cool to be able to hang out with friends from school during my breaks, I'd much rather be in Washington, in until what so recently was our... (30 November 2002)

Should I fall...

Every once in a while, I just need that reminder that there is indeed life outside of campus. I talked to Bill last night. So, so good to talk to him. He's such a great friend to me, and I... (26 November 2002)

Slow like honey

Could anything make me feel anything right now? I'm so detached from my own life right now. I'm full to the brim with apathy... It's like nothing is important anymore. Nothing gets me truly excited. Nothing gives me inertia... I... (26 November 2002)

sin(Stacey)

Sometimes I have to wonder if my heart or brain is smarter. One is blind, but the other is too analytical. So when one is happy, the other invariably looks for something to be wrong. And usually succeeds. I'd have... (26 November 2002)

To be an 'n' on a leash of men, an endless spool of fools

What's the problem here? Is it that my standards are too high? Or that I'm just too unforgiving? Why am I so able to just cut someone loose the second they don't meet my expectations? And why doesn't this bother... (17 November 2002)

Choke.

Loving someone does not always imply being compatible with them. This is the struggle of the moment. I'm learning more and more about him, and honestly, though we have a great time together... I'm beginning to realize that he's not... (17 November 2002)

Narrowly averted

Today was supposed to be my day of musing. While stuck in the drudgery of class, I had thought out some really great things to write about. I left sociology, and all hopes of waxing philosophical vanished. All my super... ( 6 November 2002)

A loss of equilibrium

I've been struggling with a lot internally recently. These things I struggle with are things that are extremely important to me as a person, and it distresses me that since my free time is somewhat less than abundant, I can't... (30 October 2002)

A struggle

I truly feel as though I am having a spiritual crisis. And I haven't the faintest idea how to go about addressing it.... (28 October 2002)

Lethargy

I'm bummed tonight. Just generally lethargic. I talked to Alan tonight. That was wonderful, it had been so long since I had heard his voice. But I found out that he won't be able to visit for Thanksgiving.... It was... (27 October 2002)

Another white night

Nights like tonight are the hardest... they're rough, emotionally draining. They're the nights that I wonder where you are, what you're doing. They're the nights where I contemplate just dropping everything, all my obligations and responsibilities, and catching a plane... (15 October 2002)

Biblical musings

I was taking a close look at Genesis 2 this morning, and I noticed something interesting in the passage (vv 22-23): "And the rib that He had taken from the man he made into a woman and brought her to... ( 4 October 2002)

On free will and (un)belief

I originally posted this in response to a post in the community challenging_god, so if you have seen this before, I apologize. We have free will, correct? This is something that I, as an agnostic atheist, take as a given... ( 2 October 2002)

4am take-home tests are great for inspiration

Thought of the day: It's hard to come up with your own irrational number in decimal form.... ( 1 October 2002)

Happy to acquiesce!

I lost all respect for my religion prof today. He was lecturing on the differences between Western literature and the literature found in the Bible. He went to great lengths to show that Western literature, since Homer, has always made... (30 September 2002)

A letter to you

I owe you so much.... More than I could possibly ever express to you. You have taught me more about myself and about life than anyone else could ever hope to. With you I experienced my first true connection. You... (30 September 2002)

Thoughts on marriage

I made some great progress as far as my views on love are concerned today. The idea of marriage has always terrified me. How can anyone say with such absolute certainty that they will love this person for the rest... (29 September 2002)

Bittersweet

Your sweet words were waiting for me when I awoke."thanks. for being unforgettable." They have helped me linger.... I have not left my sweetly sad, reflective mood of last night. I reflect on the past and on the near future....... (25 September 2002)

No [wo]man is an island

We're humans. Social animals. We meet others, we interact, we make connections. We change each other's lives. Or rather.... some of us change other's lives. Being changed requires a connection.... Which is something that is, well, difficult to obtain from... (24 September 2002)

Miss him.

Today I was reflecting on Alan and me. I came to the conclusion that what we had was good. Good in the way that a towel just out of the dryer is good. I thought about it, and I realized... (24 September 2002)

Writer's block

I like to think of myself as a philosopher. Granted, I am completely untrained in the art of philosophy, but I don't believe that prevents me from being one. But my well runneth dry. It seems to me that the... (23 September 2002)

Silence/solitude/serenity.

"Whosoever is delighted with solitude is either a wild beast or a god." --Bacon. I've been meaning to talk to you for a long time now. I want to sit down with you privately, and just have a conversation with... ( 5 August 2002)

Tick tock, tick tock...

And the pendulum swings yet again. Is it possible for someone who doesn't believe to have a crisis of faith? I am a continuum. I am not static. Most of the time you find me in a happy medium middle,... ( 2 August 2002)

Exhiliration

... That was the most exhilirating, rejuvinating thing I have done all summer. As I started out, there was Ursa Major... until I turned to Cassiopeia. I took my usual stretch break at the two-mile mark, and for the first... ( 1 Aug